hope, life, love, my life

Indecision

What’s the issue
I’m a normal woman
A great catch
Now you don’t know what you want
First you want me
Then you don’t
You hooked this fish
Just to throw her back
Make up your mind
Damn it!
I don’t like roller-coasters
They make me sick.

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life

A truth

Selfish,mean people make the world go around.
Only the greedy shall inherit the earth.
The kind and forgiving will be forced into servitude.
Kindness will get you nowhere fast.

🌹Athena-Goddess of wisdom🌹

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life, my life, Sorrow

I hate change

In a moment
My life was changed.
Changed completely.
My happiness evaporated
Into thin air.
I can see the revolting stares from others
They see me as a failure.
All my life has been a fight.
A battle to fight the tears and pain.
The moment when I was truly happy, the rug was pulled from under me.
Now I must change my life again due to one misfortune after another.
I must move my belongings into a strange place.
I must live alone for the first time in 25 years.
Searching for the meaning of all this misery.
I do want to be happy again, truly happy.
But how can I be when part of my heart is missing?

🌹Athena-Goddess of wisdom🌹

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Grief, life, my life

Hopelessly sad

A smile does not mean you are happy
A laugh does not mean you are not crying.
I long for the day when this vice like grip of pain is gone.
Stay strong, people say.
How can one remain strong when the world is collaborating your demise.
I am tired. Very tired.
I wake everyday with tears in my eyes and no hope.
My life was stolen.
All my dreams are gone.
I pass each day in a haze.
Fighting the urge to end the pain permanently.
Praying to an invisible force to give me the strength to make it through each moment.
A fake smile.
A forced laugh.
Just so I dont have to hear the voices of others  telling me not to worry.

🌹Athena-Goddess of wisdom🌹

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Shit happens

A greasy stain on your favorite blouse
One number away from powerball
The electric bill is overdue
Speeding ticket on the way to work
Car won’t pass yearly inspection
Driving on fumes for 3 days
Rent pass due
The average life for most of us working class slobs
All we can say is
“Shit happens ”
And it does.
We keep going forward
Shaking off each turd
Just hoping we don’t step in it.

🌹Athena-Goddess of wisdom🌹

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life, memories

To be hated

All my life, I have never had someone truly hate me. It’s a new feeling. One I must get used to. As I mature I am finding that I can’t change the way people think. I drove myself crazy with Whys and  What can  I do to change it. But I finally realized the truth. They were going to hate me no matter what. Because I represented the lies and  illusions they were living. A part of themselves that they were hating. I also represented the pain they were causing each other.
It took me a while to realize that their hate for me was not for me but for themselves ans each other. I can live with that.

Athena

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Peace

The world is spinning like a top
No matter how I feel
It won’t stop
Sadness, happiness,  anger, remorse,
Regret, empathy, apathy
All these feelings wrapped into one person
Peace is so hard to find in all this chaos
The only time I do find some peace is when I’m getting a piece.

Athena

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