life, my life, Sorrow

I hate change

In a moment
My life was changed.
Changed completely.
My happiness evaporated
Into thin air.
I can see the revolting stares from others
They see me as a failure.
All my life has been a fight.
A battle to fight the tears and pain.
The moment when I was truly happy, the rug was pulled from under me.
Now I must change my life again due to one misfortune after another.
I must move my belongings into a strange place.
I must live alone for the first time in 25 years.
Searching for the meaning of all this misery.
I do want to be happy again, truly happy.
But how can I be when part of my heart is missing?

🌹Athena-Goddess of wisdom🌹

death of child, Depression, Grief, Hope, Sorrow

The cold blade

The sharp, cold, grey blade.
Piercing my heart.
Allowing the red fluid of love, hope and happiness to
Ooze from my heart.
Leaving it an empty shell of what was.
Empty and heavy.
My heart was once filled with happiness, love and hope.
How do I remove this sharp blade?
So my heart can mend.
I long for the day when my heart is healed.
To once again be filled with love, happiness and hope.
To be full and light.

­čî╣Athena-Goddess of wisdom­čî╣